I think I’ll side step the sleep issue today. I will confirm though that my helper Melatonin has helped these past few nights, which is a blessing but still leaves me a tad groggy.
So, these last few weeks have been challenging, but when I think about it, the last 5 years of this condition have been challenging too. There’s one big factor that doesn’t bode well with conditions which leave you tired, exhausted, frustrated and fog brained.
Now more than ever I’ve found people in todays’ world less tolerant, less patient, less appreciative, less understanding, less willing to listen ‘properly’, more selfish, more self-opinionated, more egotistical and living in a self-contained bubble. There is never a day goes by where I come across people behaving in this way.
But not all is lost, I have people/pets around me who I love dearly, who do care, who in many ways see what I see changing in this world, who know, like me, to leave these people in their worlds. We know these people must be so shallow, so desperate to live by other people’s standards, desperate to be admired and looked up to. It’ll never stop for them because unlike some of us who are happy with our lot (well nearly, LOL), they have to keep behaving like that because it’s a drug. If they don’t get what they need from others then they fall apart.
So, while it’s a factor that doesn’t bode well because it’s just another added ‘thing’ to deal with, it is one we can let go of as soon as we close that front door at night. It’s not something they can.
I can then be left to focus on me and my needs and my determination to try and get back in to a routine of mindfulness.
Another Melatonin tonight I’ve got a lot of sleep to catch up on.